Anonymous asked: I think these depressed things you write for the whole world to see are the reason online suicide groups start. You could try one of those. I hear all the pain goes away rather quickly, and since you yourself can't pull the plug on your life because of your *ahem* slight problem in the finger department, having "friends" help sounds like just what you need. In my opinion, if you're so saddened by his death, the only way you'll find peace is by joining him.
So what you’re telling me is that I should commit suicide.
Well. Isn’t that considerate.
Don’t think I haven’t thought of it before. I think about it a lot. Fuck, I’ve held the gun up to my head and almost done it three times, and it’s only been a day since he died. But every time I’m about to pull the trigger, I hear him saying “I’m so disappointed in you, Sebastian.” And I can never do it after that.
So thanks for the fucking great advice, anon, but doesn’t look like I’m going to end up killing myself anytime soon. If you know anyone who’d be willing to do it for me, by all means, have them do it.